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WHY MY IMAGINATION IS ALL FUCKED UP...

7/16/2018

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So here’s a thought that I just thought of whilst sitting on the train. By now, some of you will be familiar with my constant companions, Jasper Mountbatten III (my ego), Derek Bluebottom (my depression) and Colin Shitsmearer (my envy). It turns out that my brain is not ethnically diverse or gender neutral. I took a moment this morning to put these three in a police line up and when looking at them I found some similarities…

Whilst they may represent very different aspects of my personality, one thing was abundantly clear. Jasper, Derek and Colin are all straight, white, male and painfully middle-class (although Jasper clearly has unrealistic aspirations towards the aristocracy).

There is a very obvious reason for this…

That being (for those of you who don’t know me personally) I am also straight, white, male and painfully middle-class. But what I find interesting is that even when taking into account the endless power of my imagination, I somehow restricted myself when thinking of all my alter egos.

Is society’s power over us so immense and unyielding that even our imagination is held under its thrall? Isn’t it supposed to be a place of boundless invention? And if it’s not, why not? And how do we free it from the shackles of cultural norms?

Is this why I feel uncomfortable at the thought of telling a story with a black person or a gay person or a poor person or a woman at the heart of it? Because, even when given the opportunity, EVEN inside my own mind, I am subconsciously marginalising them?

Given that almost all aspects of the society we live in are constructs of a collective imagination, I suppose it’s not surprising. The economy is based on a worldwide agreement that tiny numbers in bank accounts are actually worth something and Southern Rail would continue to exist (unfortunately) as an imaginative entity even if all of their trains exploded. If we live within the boundaries of our collective imagination, then surely our individual imaginations are going to be limited by those same agreements? I wonder if the collective imagination of the world has infected our reality to the point where you can’t see where one begins and the other ends.

I hope I won’t be misunderstood… the pain and horror that racism, sexism and misogyny have caused for countless people are real. Which is why it makes it doubly awful that the base reasons for BEING racist, for BEING sexist and misogynistic are entirely imagined.

And they have gone beyond imagination. Imagination should be flexible, creative and free. But these view points are anything but. It’s like someone has built an incredibly space ship, the most powerful in the world and then chained it to the earth.

I know that minds are notoriously hard things to change. But sometimes our minds aren’t even aware that there is another option, we’ve been programmed to think a certain way.

I suppose the first step is being aware…

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Neil Kelso
7/16/2018 06:21:26 am

I love your musings, and your musics.

I think it’s perfectly okay for those personified facets of oneself to have similarities to us and how we identify. It might even be cause for alarm if the ego or depression were automatically characterised as a race/gender/sexuality that was “other” than how we identify ourselves. For me, it’s quite like a hall of mirrors. They’re all me.

I think it’s also okay to feel uncomfortable when trying to tell a story from the perspective of someone whose experiences are very different to ones own. That discomfort probably pushes us to take extra time and care to double-check assumptions we’re making.

For me, I find collaboration the best way to bring in lots of authentic voices and stop me from getting too caught-in-my-own-head. I also think the more diverse the group, the faster the work can grow, because it gains so much from every translation, and the more it invites me to explore new worlds with a guide, and forces me to be really clear sharing my own experiences with collaborators who may have never seen the subject from the same angle. I love learning and sharing.

Excellent blog as always, thank you!

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Brian Nicol link
12/27/2019 12:20:08 am

What fun ~ so glad to find our ‘Rupert’ safe in the West Wing enjoying some introspection . Have you read Yuval Noah Harari’s ‘Sapiens’. He explores the power of imagination very well.

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